A*Hole.

This little picture pretty much sums it up.

Source: bearnaked.us via palindromeda on Pinterest

The past few weeks my little "ADD" has crept in. 

More often than not I have had those night where all I am doing is crying. 

It is stupid.

So... needless to say I fell off the planet again.

I cried way to much at work again.

I quit talking to friends again.

I made a mess of my house again.

I also stopped doing anything I loved again.

Some people say that depression is a choice.

F' them.

The worst part?

I can't control what triggers it.

I know that I am dealing with way more this time this year than last. 

Today I feel like I lost a world and a life that I actually belonged in.

I feel separated by a bar. Literally!

So there you have it.

I am trying. 

Most days right now it feels no where like enough and I keep stepping in quicksand.

So for today.

I went to the gym.

I emailed someone back. 

I am going to clean my room.

I've gotta start somewhere.